questionsANDanswers

1. Where is your cell phone:
Right beside me on the desk...I never let it stray too far.

2. Your hair:
Short, brown, straightened, can be quite crazy at times...

3. Your mother:
The most amazing person I know (at times), can also be quite crazy at times...

4. Your father:
Is back east! I'm jealous-it's so pretty there this time of year.

5. Your favorite food:
sushi, indian food, italian, or mexican...yums

6. Your dream from last night:
i don't remember...

7. Your favorite drink:

Vanilla Latte, Pumpkin Spice Latte, and anything warm and yums.

8. Your dream/goal:

9. What room are you in:
I like to call it the loft...

10. What is your hobby:

This is what I want to make my hobbies... taking pictures,painting and making cute things... oh and blogging more...

11. What is your fear:
Being alone...

12. Where were you last night:
At the house, doing homeworks...

13. Something you are not:
a fighter... and not as strong as i would like

14. Muffins:
Secretly suffer from cupcake envy... but are yums neverless...

15. Wish list items:
More time to do the things that I love, like taking pictures and painting...

16. Where did you grow up:

"where big lights will inspire you"

and the beautiful Phoenix Arizona...

17. Last thing you did:

send Eric a super sweet text msg, because he is rad...

18. What are you wearing:
a cardigan, black pants, flats, headband... the usual.

19. Your TV:
I hope i didn't leave it on... but if i did chances are that it is on E!

20. Your pets:
I don't have any at this time.... but if i did she would look like this

21. Your friends:
are all cute and amazing and I cherish every single one of them...

22. Your life:
Is amazing and at times magical...

23. Your mood:
sleepy, hungry, ready to go home...

24. Missing someone:
Eric

Dad

and this face

25. Vehicle:
The G ride AKA Pontiac G6

26. Something you’re not wearing:
Socks.

27. Your favorite store:
Probably Forever21, Target (must go today!), hobby lobby, ect.

28. Your favorite color:
I can't commit to just one.

29. When’s the last time you laughed:
Like 5 min. ago.

30. When’s the last time you cried:
last week...

31. Your best friend:
's are amazing beautiful people who inspire me...

32. One place you go over and over:
The same websites/blogs.

33. One person who emails me regularly:
hmm. I don't get emails all that much... hope this changes...

34. Favorite place to eat:
Too many... I love unheard of enchanted places... yums.

35. Where do you want to be in 6 years:
i just hope that i'll be loved, done with school and dreaming new dreams .

Help...

To whom this may concern... LOL...

I am not sure who (if anyone besides my friend Aimee) reads my blog...
But I need some help... And I feel that I could be stumbling across an untapped resource in the blogging community.... SO... Here's where i need you... I have just been so blessed to get promoted to Volunteer Coordinator for the hospice that I work for... I need help with thoughts on how I can recruit volunteers... If anyone is interested in donating some handmade things to us with the holiday season coming up... Really any help/suggestions are soooo appreciated...

for the first time in a long time...

For the first time in a long time... I feel so blessed...

I feel blessed for the changes that I have made in my life to get me to the point that I am at now... For the first time in such a long time I put my mind to something AND was able to reach a goal... Letting no obstacle get in my way... OF COURSE i have had/done my fair share of bitching but I never gave up AND that's what counts...

Lets begin the list... (So i can always look back and smile)

1. I went back to school... I stopped going when I was 24, gave it up because I had no idea what I wanted to do... and then a boy got in my way... So after working at the hospice for over a year, I decided that I really want to help people... So i am now finishing up my associates degree so I can get my Bachelors degree in Social Work... :)

2. I lost 10 pounds... AND i am not done yet!!! I have been struggling with my weight for a very long time... I like so many people look at food for comfort... I went through a lot over this last couple years... Lots of growing up was done (not easy, many nights were spent crying with the loneliness that I felt.) and with that loneliness food was my best friend... I spent many Sundays saying that the following Monday was the start of my new life, only to fail by Wednesday... I hated wearing baggy clothes to hide my stomach... I am in my friends wedding and the thought of walking down the isle holding my breath, or during pictures sucking it in was too much... And then I tried on the dress, I couldn't fit in a size 14!!! We tried on a 16 and that was tight, and last we went for the 18... I felt like i could die... I have never in my life been this big!!!(not that their is anything wrong with that size if you are happy with yourself, but i was not) My dear friend sarah (the bride) told me i should get the 14 as encouragement to really loose the weight... I couldn't believe that someone was pushing me like I needed to be, like I kept wishing for.... SO i went to try on the dress yesterday and IT FIT!!! I could probably fit into a 12!!!! Such an amazing feeling that I want to hold onto and reflect on over my weight loss journey...

3. Eric... I know its been early but I just enjoy this guy so much!! He asked me to go to his work Halloween party with me, I said yes... He is going as Robin, His roommate and wife are going as Batman and Poison Ivy... I think I am going as cat woman... *I must rock this costume* But (super scary) I am going to meet his best friend (who is a girl) bethany... I am so nervous about this... I have gotten along with all his friends so far, but I am friends with a lot of guys and i know how I am when i meet the girl my boys bring around. I hope she how much I dig this guy and I am not going to break his heart... AND i have major confidence boost right now so I am trying not to be nervous...

So Eric just texted me that he is sick... So i am gonna bring him some homemade chicken noodle soup (from Costco) to make him feel better... :)

AND I want to post my pic of me and the dress... Pay no mind to the Bra straps :D

Remind yourself everyday....

Relese your grip a little,

Trust just a little more,

Show up for your dreams today.

Letting go is the best way to hold on........

just an amazing weekend....

A typical Monday morning for me includes waking up, grumbling, tired and just oh so cranky... However this morning I woke up with a huge smile on my face and super great memories to reflect on...

Friday night, I went to go see this amazing local band called Vayden... I just love watching them play... I love being at a show and singing along with a band... Its such an escape... I asked Eric if he would like to come with me... He did and had such a great time... He met some friends and really enjoyed himself...

And about Eric... I can really sit here and say I am not sure if I have ever felt this way about someone... I am trying to hold back feelings because it is so brand new... But he is so amazing.... I found myself looking at him this weekend and thanking the universe for bringing him into my life... He was also my date to my 10 year high school reunion... The best part was he wanted to go... To be apart of something that was so important to me...

So... Lets talk about the reunion... I was very aprehensive about going... I was upset because it was at this bar in old town Scottsdale and was poorly put together... But after some soul serching i decided that I really needed to go... I am happy with where I am in my life... I am at a job that I love, have this new amazing person in my life... Plus i was really looking foward to seeing people that i have lost connection with... So we arived at 7:30pm, I got super nervous upon walking up to the bar. So I grabbed Eric's hand took a huge breath and walked in... As soon as I got to the top of the steps I saw one of my good high school friends Adam, got a huge hug from him and was put to ease... Then it was just a sereal feeling walking through the crowd... Lots of hugs and smiles... The funny thing was although I havent seen many of the people in years... Because of facebook it helped me from asking the same questions over and over again and it was like i had seen them all in the last 10 years... Of course it got very clicky, same people that hung out with each other were standing in high school were again standing to each other... But Eric and i made our way through the crowed and my old friend Maria who was there with her boyfriend... Eric and Maria's boyfriend talked, and it was wonderful because Maria and i could go walk around and not worry about him being alone... I was so impressed with Eric... He really mingled well with everyone... I was kinda upset because i bought a new camera and couldnt wait to use it, and i took only 3 pictures... BOO, me...

So After the reunion a bunch of us headed over to loco patrone...Eric again, was amazing, taking to everyone... In fact 2 girls that I was friends with told me that they thought he was so amazing and joked with him telling him if he brakes my heart they would go after him... But the night had to come to an end... I went back to Eric's and fell asleep in his arms...

So its these memories that are making my Monday...

Always in my heart...

I am unsure how to start this... My brain right now is flooded with amazing beautiful memories of Michael Jackson... I was one years old when Thriller was released... And 6 when my mom bought the record for me... I remember holding that record in my hands so tight and squirming with excitement of being able to listen to him when ever I wanted to... I remember placing that record on the turn table so carefully not to scratch it and then "wanna be starting something" played... I would dance around for hours listening to it... Mom bought my sister and I red jackets, we would listen to thriller and wear our jackets... My sister and I would watch the making of Thriller everyday after school... We loved it...

And then "Bad" came out... My friend Melissa Ashcraft and I would sit on her porch and play that tape over and over again... We would jump rope to it, dance to it, sing to it... I remember watching him no wait studying him on MTV to learn new dance moves... You see that was when MTV played music videos... Funny saying that, the first video i saw on MTV in years was Michael Jackson's "Bad" on Thursday after his death...

Michael Jackson was an icon... Thriller was released 27 years ago and its still the best selling record of all time... Mark my words, it will never be topped... Michael Jackson didn't make music videos, he made motion pictures... He made us all rush home from school to turn on MTV to see his videos... He made us dance in front of our TVs... He made us feel his music with every kick or thrust...

On Thursday morning, at about 10:00 AM, Michael Jackson's "Beat it" played on my Pandora... One of my co-workers was in a bad mood, so i did a little dance for her to make her smile... I turned to my boss and said, "27 years later and this song is still one of the greatest, they don't make music like this any more"... My boss was the one who called and told me about his death 3 hours later... At first like many i am sure kept hoping that what i was seeing was not true...

In the hours that followed his death, I turned on the radio and they were playing Michael Jackson songs...Some of the songs I haven't heard in years... I started dancing and singing and thought this is how i am going to honor him.. I am not going to reflect on the last 10 years of his life... I want to celebrate the music, embrace the warm memories... I want to play his music for my children... I want not to reflect on all the negative things that have come out about him and that will... Cause all of that will not take away the beautiful memories we have shared...

Thank you Michael for all the joy you brought me... I know that every time i hear you songs your spirit will live on in everyone of us....

Bring it on...

My new years resolution...
Oh and to blog so much more... :O)
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!