27...

I turned 27 yesterday... And it was the worst day of my life... Never in my life have I felt as alone as I did yesterday... I did nothing all day, never received a call from my father or even as much as a text message from my sister...

I however am not allowing my to fall in the same pattern that I fell in this year... I found that Its too easy for me to play the "why me card"... I have depended on my friends too much too comfort me and hold my hand along the way... I have come to see that this is not the way too go... I only can save myself...

People use January 1st to make new years resolutions... I am not going to be one of those people (mostly because by January 4th people have forgotten all about them) I have never been 27 before and Its a start of a new year for me...

This is my year to shine... I have a job that I love and that makes me very happy... So this year I am all about self discovery...

So tonight I have lit some sage, cleansed my aura, and I am ready to embark the 27th year of my life....

Here are some of my goals this year...
*I am going to write (or at least try) everyday... Just my thoughts, since I am no longer going to vent to my friends, I have hopes that getting them out in this blog will work them out in my head (i hope that makes sense)
*I want to do yoga, work on my breathing...
*Play softball... Some of the best memories of my youth involved softball... and it will be a good work out :O)
*Attend some free classes....
*Take more pictures....
*Go to church... I am not a big fan of organized religion... So i am on a quest to find a church were I feel home... and feel no pressure....
* Hang out with my Aunt Joan and Uncle Tom... They live 15 minutes away... I never see them, and I don't want to regret missing out on any more time with them...
*go to flea markets...
*Loose 40 pounds
*Travel around AZ... By my self... Or in the company of someone who will enjoy it as much as I do...
*Read more... I am currently reading Eat, Pray. Love... It is changing my life...
*Make clothes.... I have always wanted to do this... I have a sewing machine, I am going to use this....

I know where my head is... I am commited to making it right... Doing work... Changing my self...

Here we go.... :O)