open up and let me in...

contents of bag = contents of life
1. black Kenneth Cole wallet containing; check book, debit card, and a single dollar, and a bazillion other cards I never use (ie health card, Blockbuster card, Fry's VIP card, etc)
2. Marlboro lights and lighter
3. Tape measure
4. cinnamon Trident gum
5. Camera
6. keys (office and apartment)
7. three different kinds of chapstick
8. four lipglosses
9. tide stain remover pen
10. recepits for god knows what
11. Vaseline Smoothing Moisture Cocoa Butter hand lotion
12. hair ties
13. a movie ticket stub
14. two business cards from random guys
15. Clean and Clear Oil Absorbing Sheets
16. MAC compact.

dang it...

I can't sleep.
I went to bed, watched some sex in the city,
and then rolled over in hopes of passing out.
Suddenly, for absolutely no good reason, ex-boyfriends started bombarding my mind; their faces, smiles, kisses, our talks, our laughter, our conversations, the "I love you's", the "I miss you's"...
Suddenly it hit me, - I'm not ready. I'm not ready for "the" serious relationship-
not ready for the end-all, be-all of relationships.
I'm 25, I'm young, I'm cute, I'm smart, and still have so much to see... why am I stressing about finding the perfect guy?