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Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear

'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things
I should have said

So I speak to you in riddles because
My words get in my way.
I smoke thewhole thing to my head and feel itwash away
'cause i can't take anymoreof this,
I want to come apart.
or dig myself a little hole insideyour precious heart'

Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
I am nothing more than a little boy inside
That cries out for attention
though I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed

'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

~Staind

I w o n t b e t h a t g i r l.

Dont feed me your stupid lines that you think I want to hear, only to five minutes later feed them to some other chick...
I dont believe them anymore.

Dont make promises you know you cant keep...
I dont trust you anymore.

Dont pretend to care when you dont...
I wont share with you anymore.

Dont complain to me that you're feeling neglected...
because frankly I'm not going to be there for you anymore.


I wont be that girl.
I wont be taken advantage of.
I wont be a friend of convenience.
I wont be at your beck and call.
I am not here at your disposal.


Im getting really sick, actually rather fed up with these guys who can enter someones life and so easily toy with their emotions.
Whatever happenned to being GENUINE?
Creating special bonds with the different individuals you meet rather than saying a whole lot of the same nothingness to appease them.
No girl likes to be made a fool of.
What purpose does it serve you?
Does it make you happy to know you're stringing along all these girls without remorse?

Every guy I meet has such a knack for
making me feel special,
feel thought of, feel like IM THE ONLY ONE,
only to disappoint me in the end
by throwing it all away like I meant absolutely nothing.
I deserve more than that.
I wont be a puppet in your games.
Im smarter than you.
Im one step ahead.
I will feed you your lines right back and with more conviction.
So dont think your tactics will work on me.
I can see right through them- right through you.

It's like sometimes when you get caught up with your own impression of the world
and the people around you,
it's time to just take a step back for a second
to actually observe reality
and understand whats really going on
and realize how you're really being treated.

This is my G O O D B Y E...