Well I am back from Florida… I had an amazing time!!! Michelle looked stunning, Ricky be looking good too… Congrats guys I love you!!! It was great to see the family, Its funny how with your family no matter how much time you have spent apart when your together it feels like no time has even pasted…
The weather was great, I like to think that we brought that out their when we rolled up on the plane…
And Kevin… I saw him… Wow it was just like old times… I and I am sure every one around me realized how much he lights up my life… Now I am back in the same position I was a year and a half ago… But as I began thinking I don't think I have ever been over him, even though we broke up, we talked almost every day still, even when we were seeing other people…He is my best friend, my everything… So now what… Funny thing about love is it always shows up at the wrong time…
Yesterday was hard… I forgot because its been so long what its like saying good-bye to him… I kept telling myself don't look back, don't watch him drive off, but I never listen to myself when I say that… He left again… I forgot how when you open the suitcase how the clothes smell like him…
And then the best thing that could of ever happened did, from a person that I considederd a weekend friend…
· Defination of a weekend friend~ a person that you hang out with, don't talk to all the time, mostly on the weekend while planning events that usually involve drinking and dancing…
Well my weekend friend called me… She listened to me and helped me so much…
And then Aimee… Girl, thanks for never judging Kevin… You have heard the worst and you still can sit on the phone with me and tell me to follow my heart…
For all the girls out their he is my Mr. Big… And like Carrie says…
No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends
A Static Lullaby, Lipgloss And Letdown….
blind out the answers, find yourself,
walk for the moment,
find the reason in yourself,
theres a reason there's a reason for you and i,
there's a reason There's a reason for you and I,
take this time to find a meaning,
a reason to sit back and measure the worst 6 years of my life,
waiting for your legs to close on my best friends,
last night i saw your life flash before my eyes, why did i laugh so hard baby? (you won't be back and i'm still laughing)
i never meant to hurt you(but i did)
i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling,
i'll never hurt you again, take this time to find your tongue,
a sorry excuse to stop your lies,
the best 30 seconds of my life,
my angel take your pills,
my angel i sold your ring,
and now you're speechless,
and now i can't stop laughing,
why did i laugh so hard baby? (you won't be back and i'm still laughing)
i never meant to hurt you(but i did)
i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling,
i'll never hurt you again, why did i laugh so hard baby? (you won't be back and i'm still laughing) i never meant to hurt you(but i did)
i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling,
i'll never hurt you again,
i didnt want it this way,
i didn't want it this way,
i didn't want it this way,
i didn't want it this way,
i hope you're happy where you are and i'm glad to say i put you there,
who's the one that's laughing now,
i'm the one who's laughing now,
Now (now theres nothing left to say i hope you're feeling my embrace, and i can't sleep)
you should have left me sleeping,
you should have let me sleep...
blind out the answers, find yourself,
walk for the moment,
find the reason in yourself,
theres a reason there's a reason for you and i,
there's a reason There's a reason for you and I,
take this time to find a meaning,
a reason to sit back and measure the worst 6 years of my life,
waiting for your legs to close on my best friends,
last night i saw your life flash before my eyes, why did i laugh so hard baby? (you won't be back and i'm still laughing)
i never meant to hurt you(but i did)
i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling,
i'll never hurt you again, take this time to find your tongue,
a sorry excuse to stop your lies,
the best 30 seconds of my life,
my angel take your pills,
my angel i sold your ring,
and now you're speechless,
and now i can't stop laughing,
why did i laugh so hard baby? (you won't be back and i'm still laughing)
i never meant to hurt you(but i did)
i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling,
i'll never hurt you again, why did i laugh so hard baby? (you won't be back and i'm still laughing) i never meant to hurt you(but i did)
i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling,
i'll never hurt you again,
i didnt want it this way,
i didn't want it this way,
i didn't want it this way,
i didn't want it this way,
i hope you're happy where you are and i'm glad to say i put you there,
who's the one that's laughing now,
i'm the one who's laughing now,
Now (now theres nothing left to say i hope you're feeling my embrace, and i can't sleep)
you should have left me sleeping,
you should have let me sleep...
HOLDYOURPILLOWTIGHT....
YOU THOUGH YOU KNEW YOU HAD NO IDEA!!!
STAY IN THE CLOSET THATS WHERE YOU BLELONG, I KNOW LAME....
Far Away, Nickelback
This time, this place, misused, MISTAKES. Too long, too late, WHO WAS I TO MAKE YOU WAIT. Just one chance, one breath, JUST INCASE THERE'S JUST ONE LEFT...Cause you know, I love you, I've loved you all along, and I miss you, FAR AWAY FOR FAR TOO LONG, I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll stop breathing if I don't see you anymore...On my knees, I last, our last chance for one last dance. Cause with you, I'D WITHSTAND ALL OF HELL TO HOLD YOUR HAND. I'd give it all, it'd be for us, I'll give everything but I WON'T GIVE UP...I wanted, I wanted you to stay, cause I needed, I NEED TO HEAR YOU SAY. I love you, I've loved you all along, and I FORGIVE YOU for being away for far too long, keep breathing cause I'M NOT LEAVING YOU ANYMORE...hold onto me, never let me go...
Fix You, Coldplay
When you try your best but you don't succeed, when you get what you want, but not what you need. When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep, stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face, when you lose something you can't replace. WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE BUT IT GOES TO WASTE, could it be worse. Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I WILL TRY TO FIX YOU. High up above or down below. WHEN YOUR TOO IN LOVE TO LET IT GO. But if you never try then you never know, JUST WHAT YOUR WORTH. Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you. Tears stream down your face, when you lose something you cannot replace. Tears stream down your face, and I...Tears stream down your face, I PROMISE YOU I WILL LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES, tears stream down your face and I...Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you...
Raindropsong, Kris Nelson
It's just that being without you is like raindrops on my head pattering off walls ceilings and windowpanes from somewhere up above, and I know I MISUNDERSTOOD THE LAST WORDS THAT YOU SAID, that's it I'm outta here, we're done, I've had enough. So don't help me out my chair when you know that I can walk, I GOT NOTHING TO LOSE, EVERTHING TO GAIN. It's so hard to understand the way this world works recognize that things are never gonna be the same...THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME...
Goodbye My Lover, James Blunt
Did I disappoint you, or let you down. Should I be feeling guilty, or let the judges frown. Cause I saw the end, before it began. Yes I saw you were blind, and I knew I had won. So I took whats mine, by eternal right. Took your soul out into the night. It may be over, but it won't stop there, I'm here for you, IF YOU'D ONLY CARE. You touched my heart, you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals. Love is blind and that I knew, and MY HEART WAS BLINDED BY YOU. I kissed your lips and held your head, shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell, I'VE BEEN ADDICTED TO YOU.....I am a dreamer, and when I wake, you can break my spirit, it's my dreams you take. AND AS YOU MOVE ON, REMEMBER ME, REMEMBER US AND ALL WE USED TO BE. I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile, watched you sleeping for awhile. I'd be the father of your child, I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your face and you know mine, we've had our doubts but now we're fine. And I love you I swear that's true, I cannot live without you....And I still hold your hand in mine, at night when I'm asleep. And I will bear my soul in time, when I'm kneeling at your feet....Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend, you have been the one, you have been the one for me. Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend, you have been the one, you have been the one for me....
STAY IN THE CLOSET THATS WHERE YOU BLELONG, I KNOW LAME....
Far Away, Nickelback
This time, this place, misused, MISTAKES. Too long, too late, WHO WAS I TO MAKE YOU WAIT. Just one chance, one breath, JUST INCASE THERE'S JUST ONE LEFT...Cause you know, I love you, I've loved you all along, and I miss you, FAR AWAY FOR FAR TOO LONG, I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll stop breathing if I don't see you anymore...On my knees, I last, our last chance for one last dance. Cause with you, I'D WITHSTAND ALL OF HELL TO HOLD YOUR HAND. I'd give it all, it'd be for us, I'll give everything but I WON'T GIVE UP...I wanted, I wanted you to stay, cause I needed, I NEED TO HEAR YOU SAY. I love you, I've loved you all along, and I FORGIVE YOU for being away for far too long, keep breathing cause I'M NOT LEAVING YOU ANYMORE...hold onto me, never let me go...
Fix You, Coldplay
When you try your best but you don't succeed, when you get what you want, but not what you need. When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep, stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face, when you lose something you can't replace. WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE BUT IT GOES TO WASTE, could it be worse. Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I WILL TRY TO FIX YOU. High up above or down below. WHEN YOUR TOO IN LOVE TO LET IT GO. But if you never try then you never know, JUST WHAT YOUR WORTH. Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you. Tears stream down your face, when you lose something you cannot replace. Tears stream down your face, and I...Tears stream down your face, I PROMISE YOU I WILL LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES, tears stream down your face and I...Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you...
Raindropsong, Kris Nelson
It's just that being without you is like raindrops on my head pattering off walls ceilings and windowpanes from somewhere up above, and I know I MISUNDERSTOOD THE LAST WORDS THAT YOU SAID, that's it I'm outta here, we're done, I've had enough. So don't help me out my chair when you know that I can walk, I GOT NOTHING TO LOSE, EVERTHING TO GAIN. It's so hard to understand the way this world works recognize that things are never gonna be the same...THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME...
Goodbye My Lover, James Blunt
Did I disappoint you, or let you down. Should I be feeling guilty, or let the judges frown. Cause I saw the end, before it began. Yes I saw you were blind, and I knew I had won. So I took whats mine, by eternal right. Took your soul out into the night. It may be over, but it won't stop there, I'm here for you, IF YOU'D ONLY CARE. You touched my heart, you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals. Love is blind and that I knew, and MY HEART WAS BLINDED BY YOU. I kissed your lips and held your head, shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell, I'VE BEEN ADDICTED TO YOU.....I am a dreamer, and when I wake, you can break my spirit, it's my dreams you take. AND AS YOU MOVE ON, REMEMBER ME, REMEMBER US AND ALL WE USED TO BE. I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile, watched you sleeping for awhile. I'd be the father of your child, I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your face and you know mine, we've had our doubts but now we're fine. And I love you I swear that's true, I cannot live without you....And I still hold your hand in mine, at night when I'm asleep. And I will bear my soul in time, when I'm kneeling at your feet....Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend, you have been the one, you have been the one for me. Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend, you have been the one, you have been the one for me....
ASiKNewHim....
I have sat here for the last 20 minutes staring at the computer screen wondering where should I start… How bout this I lost a friend this weekend… He was such a great guy…Always made me smile… Tried to dance but never could… Let me shave his chest because he "looked like Austin Powers" not only that but I shaved his chest with a dull razor blade and soap… He ended up going to the hospital due to really bad razor burn…His smile always made me smile… in a crowed bar he always found me… bought me a drink and tried to take me home… Last time I saw him he looked at me with a serious face and told me that he just brought sexy back… That was so Bob…
I am glad I can close my eyes and still see his smile… Hear his laugh… That was as I knew him… How I will remember him…
live life as if there is no tomorrow, why just sit around and waist your life away… make someone life, smile at a stranger on the street, people remember that…Never regret anything, you are who you are for the mistakes you have made…Remember to tell those close to you that you love them...
R.I.P
Bob… Drink it down and live it up…
I am glad I can close my eyes and still see his smile… Hear his laugh… That was as I knew him… How I will remember him…
live life as if there is no tomorrow, why just sit around and waist your life away… make someone life, smile at a stranger on the street, people remember that…Never regret anything, you are who you are for the mistakes you have made…Remember to tell those close to you that you love them...
R.I.P
Bob… Drink it down and live it up…
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