smash em up crash em up... done with 2006...

Smash the rearview cause i am done looking back....
Oh yay and joy...it's that time of the year again...Christmas has come and gone, and now we have face our failures, short-comings, and general inadequacy head on... Because some genius thought New Years Eve is a day of reflection and coming up with list of things we resolute accomplish in the coming year...Dumb…

The funny thing however is a few short days after the new year, we seem to forget the promises that we make to ourselves and fail to commit to the resolutions that would no doubt "improve" the quality of our lives…

Fact is 2006 sucked… Too many tears have been shed… I some where in 2006 lost myself completely…I don't know where it started… maybe with leaving home, starting this new job, or seeing Kevin, could be letting a magic 8 ball decided what it is that I should do that night…

Well with that being said I have decided to make a resolution that I unboubtly will be able to keep… I resolve to commit myself fully and wholeheartedly towards improving every aspect about my life… Smash the rearview mirror cause I am done looking back… 2007 is going to be my year and I will not let my self down… I deserve to be happy and the only person that can help me achieve happiness is myself!!!

If this means not going to the bar or club every weekend, and just sitting at home on the couch then so be it… I really don't care if my phone stops ringing because of it…

"it's been a long December, and maybe this year will be better then the last…"


** Aimee…You have been a great friend. If there is ever a time I need to talk to any one you are there for me!!! And you know I would be for you… Even if we dont see each other that much you are a true friend… Like I said the other night 8 years ago I would never have imagined you would be my go to girl… You are the one who makes this "grown-up world" make sense to me…You will always be part of my life… I am so happy for you!!!

2006 good-bye....

JANUARY
1. Who kissed you on new years?Liz, a random guy, Brandon…
2. Did you have a new year's resolution this year?yes… My New Year's resolution for the past several years has been to stop swearing and never talk badly about people...and they will continue to be my resolutions every year until I accomplish it.
3. Does it snow where you live?nope :)
4. Do you like hot chocolate?Yes
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop?No
FEBRUARY
1. Who was your Valentine?I didn't have one….
2. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?heck yeah… I even gave out NKOTB valentine cards on year… total pimp status…
3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not?no
MARCH
1. Are you Irish?NOPE…
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day?I WORE A SHIRT THAT SAID RUB FOR LUCK… WITH A SHAMROCK…
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2006?WENT TO A HOUSE PARTY AND SAW SOME LAME BAND PLAY….
4. Are you happy when winter is pretty much over?I DO LOVE IT, I LOVE WHEN IT WARMS UP….
APRIL
1. Do you like the rain?HECK YEAH!!! I WISH WE GOT MORE…
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?NOPE BUT I SHOULD HAVE…
3. Do you get tons of candy on Easter?NO
4. Do you celebrate 4/20?No… OH THAT WAS THE WORST DAY OF 2006…
5. Do you love the month of April?SURE DO… LOVE THE WEATHER…
MAY
1. What is your favorite flower?I love flowers… calla lily's are tops on my list…
2. Do you like the spring?Yep…
3. Finish the phrase "April showers": bring May flowers
4. What is the first color you think of when you think of Spring?PINK!!!!
JUNE
1. What year did/will you (supposed to) graduate from highschool?
1999…
2. Did you do anything fun during this month?no just hung around the pool…
JULY
1. What did you do on the Fourth of July?I DID NOTHING… IT REALLY WAS LAME… SOME HOW I ENDED UP IN TEMPE WATCHING FIREWORKS…
2. Did you go on any vacations during this month?no
3. Do you blast the A/C all day?YEAH I LIVE IN ARIZONA..
AUGUST
1. Did you do anything special at the end of your summer? had a bbq… I am sure I cooked my stuffed hamburgers and baked potatoe salid that became famous this summer…
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '06?no good memory…
3. Did you have a sunburn?no
4. Do you go to the beach a lot?nope sat at home this whole weekend
SEPTEMBER
1. Did you attend school/college in '06?
No…2
. Who is your favorite teacher?
Um, Mr. August… only because last week I saw him at brennans and we had a drink….
3. Do you like fall better then summer?yeah, but do we really have a fall in Arizona???OCTOBER
1. What was your favorite Halloween costume?oh most def my mummy costume that my mom made for me…
2. What is your favorite candy?Reeses
3. What did you dress up as this year?no I was in Florida…
NOVEMBER
1. Whose house did you go to for Thanksgiving?My cousins house…
2. Do you love stuffing?yes I love Tami's… it's the best, lace keep working on it gurl…
3. What are you thankful for?My friends and family… lame and used a lot however, this year my friends stepped it up when I needed it…
DECEMBER
1. Do you celebrate Christmas?HECK YEAH!!!!
2. What is December 1st, 2006?UM IT WAS A FRIDAY…
3. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe?SURE HAVE… ITS NOT ALL ITS CRACKED UP TO BE…
4. Get anything special last year?YES…
5. What do you want this year?oh this has become easy… http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/28T7B6U2O78QS/
6. Do you like cold weather?yeah… only in December…

CRAZYlittleTHINGCALLEDLOVE

Well I am back from Florida… I had an amazing time!!! Michelle looked stunning, Ricky be looking good too… Congrats guys I love you!!! It was great to see the family, Its funny how with your family no matter how much time you have spent apart when your together it feels like no time has even pasted…

The weather was great, I like to think that we brought that out their when we rolled up on the plane…

And Kevin… I saw him… Wow it was just like old times… I and I am sure every one around me realized how much he lights up my life… Now I am back in the same position I was a year and a half ago… But as I began thinking I don't think I have ever been over him, even though we broke up, we talked almost every day still, even when we were seeing other people…He is my best friend, my everything… So now what… Funny thing about love is it always shows up at the wrong time…

Yesterday was hard… I forgot because its been so long what its like saying good-bye to him… I kept telling myself don't look back, don't watch him drive off, but I never listen to myself when I say that… He left again… I forgot how when you open the suitcase how the clothes smell like him…

And then the best thing that could of ever happened did, from a person that I considederd a weekend friend…
· Defination of a weekend friend~ a person that you hang out with, don't talk to all the time, mostly on the weekend while planning events that usually involve drinking and dancing…

Well my weekend friend called me… She listened to me and helped me so much…

And then Aimee… Girl, thanks for never judging Kevin… You have heard the worst and you still can sit on the phone with me and tell me to follow my heart…

For all the girls out their he is my Mr. Big… And like Carrie says…

No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends
A Static Lullaby, Lipgloss And Letdown….

blind out the answers, find yourself,
walk for the moment,
find the reason in yourself,
theres a reason there's a reason for you and i,
there's a reason There's a reason for you and I,
take this time to find a meaning,
a reason to sit back and measure the worst 6 years of my life,
waiting for your legs to close on my best friends,
last night i saw your life flash before my eyes, why did i laugh so hard baby? (you won't be back and i'm still laughing)
i never meant to hurt you(but i did)
i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling,
i'll never hurt you again, take this time to find your tongue,
a sorry excuse to stop your lies,
the best 30 seconds of my life,
my angel take your pills,
my angel i sold your ring,
and now you're speechless,
and now i can't stop laughing,
why did i laugh so hard baby? (you won't be back and i'm still laughing)
i never meant to hurt you(but i did)
i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling,
i'll never hurt you again, why did i laugh so hard baby? (you won't be back and i'm still laughing) i never meant to hurt you(but i did)
i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling,
i'll never hurt you again,
i didnt want it this way,
i didn't want it this way,
i didn't want it this way,
i didn't want it this way,
i hope you're happy where you are and i'm glad to say i put you there,
who's the one that's laughing now,
i'm the one who's laughing now,
Now (now theres nothing left to say i hope you're feeling my embrace, and i can't sleep)
you should have left me sleeping,
you should have let me sleep...

HOLDYOURPILLOWTIGHT....

YOU THOUGH YOU KNEW YOU HAD NO IDEA!!!
STAY IN THE CLOSET THATS WHERE YOU BLELONG, I KNOW LAME....


Far Away, Nickelback
This time, this place, misused, MISTAKES. Too long, too late, WHO WAS I TO MAKE YOU WAIT. Just one chance, one breath, JUST INCASE THERE'S JUST ONE LEFT...Cause you know, I love you, I've loved you all along, and I miss you, FAR AWAY FOR FAR TOO LONG, I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll stop breathing if I don't see you anymore...On my knees, I last, our last chance for one last dance. Cause with you, I'D WITHSTAND ALL OF HELL TO HOLD YOUR HAND. I'd give it all, it'd be for us, I'll give everything but I WON'T GIVE UP...I wanted, I wanted you to stay, cause I needed, I NEED TO HEAR YOU SAY. I love you, I've loved you all along, and I FORGIVE YOU for being away for far too long, keep breathing cause I'M NOT LEAVING YOU ANYMORE...hold onto me, never let me go...

Fix You, Coldplay
When you try your best but you don't succeed, when you get what you want, but not what you need. When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep, stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face, when you lose something you can't replace. WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE BUT IT GOES TO WASTE, could it be worse. Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I WILL TRY TO FIX YOU. High up above or down below. WHEN YOUR TOO IN LOVE TO LET IT GO. But if you never try then you never know, JUST WHAT YOUR WORTH. Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you. Tears stream down your face, when you lose something you cannot replace. Tears stream down your face, and I...Tears stream down your face, I PROMISE YOU I WILL LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES, tears stream down your face and I...Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you...

Raindropsong, Kris Nelson
It's just that being without you is like raindrops on my head pattering off walls ceilings and windowpanes from somewhere up above, and I know I MISUNDERSTOOD THE LAST WORDS THAT YOU SAID, that's it I'm outta here, we're done, I've had enough. So don't help me out my chair when you know that I can walk, I GOT NOTHING TO LOSE, EVERTHING TO GAIN. It's so hard to understand the way this world works recognize that things are never gonna be the same...THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME...

Goodbye My Lover, James Blunt
Did I disappoint you, or let you down. Should I be feeling guilty, or let the judges frown. Cause I saw the end, before it began. Yes I saw you were blind, and I knew I had won. So I took whats mine, by eternal right. Took your soul out into the night. It may be over, but it won't stop there, I'm here for you, IF YOU'D ONLY CARE. You touched my heart, you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals. Love is blind and that I knew, and MY HEART WAS BLINDED BY YOU. I kissed your lips and held your head, shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell, I'VE BEEN ADDICTED TO YOU.....I am a dreamer, and when I wake, you can break my spirit, it's my dreams you take. AND AS YOU MOVE ON, REMEMBER ME, REMEMBER US AND ALL WE USED TO BE. I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile, watched you sleeping for awhile. I'd be the father of your child, I'd spend a lifetime with you. I know your face and you know mine, we've had our doubts but now we're fine. And I love you I swear that's true, I cannot live without you....And I still hold your hand in mine, at night when I'm asleep. And I will bear my soul in time, when I'm kneeling at your feet....Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend, you have been the one, you have been the one for me. Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend, you have been the one, you have been the one for me....

ASiKNewHim....

I have sat here for the last 20 minutes staring at the computer screen wondering where should I start… How bout this I lost a friend this weekend… He was such a great guy…Always made me smile… Tried to dance but never could… Let me shave his chest because he "looked like Austin Powers" not only that but I shaved his chest with a dull razor blade and soap… He ended up going to the hospital due to really bad razor burn…His smile always made me smile… in a crowed bar he always found me… bought me a drink and tried to take me home… Last time I saw him he looked at me with a serious face and told me that he just brought sexy back… That was so Bob…

I am glad I can close my eyes and still see his smile… Hear his laugh… That was as I knew him… How I will remember him…


live life as if there is no tomorrow, why just sit around and waist your life away… make someone life, smile at a stranger on the street, people remember that…Never regret anything, you are who you are for the mistakes you have made…Remember to tell those close to you that you love them...

R.I.P
Bob… Drink it down and live it up…

stolen heart...

Aerosmith's~What it takes (changed to fit me)


There goes my old BOYFRIEND,
there's another diamond ring
And, uh, all those late night promises I guess they don't mean a thing
So baby, what's the story? Did you find another GIRL?
Is it easy to sleep in the bed that we made?
When you don't look back I guess the feelings start to fade away.
I used to feel your fire But now it's cold inside And you're back on the street like you didn't miss a beat, yeah

Tell me what it takes to let you go
Tell me how the pain's supposed to go
Tell me how it is that you can sleep in the night Without thinking you lost everything that was good in your life to the toss of the dice?
Tell me what it takes to let you go.

Yeah BOY, before I met you I was F.I.N.E.
Fine but your love made me a prisoner, yeah my heart's been doing time
You spent me up like money, then you hung me out to dry
It was easy to keep all your lies in disguise
Cause you had me in deep with the devil in your eyes



Tell me that you're happy that you're on your own Yeah, yeah, yeah
Tell me that it's better when you're all alone
Tell me that your body doesn't miss my touch
Tell me that my lovin' didn't mean that much
Tell me you ain't dyin' when you're cryin' for me


Tell me what it takes to let you go
Tell me how the pain's supposed to go
Tell me how it is that you can sleep in the night Without thinking you lost everything that was good in your life to the toss of the dice?
Tell me who's to blame for thinkin' twice No no no no '
cause I don't wanna burn in paradise Ooo Let go, let go, let go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go I don't wanna burn, I don't wanna burn

open up and let me in...

contents of bag = contents of life
1. black Kenneth Cole wallet containing; check book, debit card, and a single dollar, and a bazillion other cards I never use (ie health card, Blockbuster card, Fry's VIP card, etc)
2. Marlboro lights and lighter
3. Tape measure
4. cinnamon Trident gum
5. Camera
6. keys (office and apartment)
7. three different kinds of chapstick
8. four lipglosses
9. tide stain remover pen
10. recepits for god knows what
11. Vaseline Smoothing Moisture Cocoa Butter hand lotion
12. hair ties
13. a movie ticket stub
14. two business cards from random guys
15. Clean and Clear Oil Absorbing Sheets
16. MAC compact.

dang it...

I can't sleep.
I went to bed, watched some sex in the city,
and then rolled over in hopes of passing out.
Suddenly, for absolutely no good reason, ex-boyfriends started bombarding my mind; their faces, smiles, kisses, our talks, our laughter, our conversations, the "I love you's", the "I miss you's"...
Suddenly it hit me, - I'm not ready. I'm not ready for "the" serious relationship-
not ready for the end-all, be-all of relationships.
I'm 25, I'm young, I'm cute, I'm smart, and still have so much to see... why am I stressing about finding the perfect guy?

wordsofwisdom...

I have these shoes. Shoes that I wear all the time. Shoes that I am known to strut in, from time to time. And today, as I was strut--*ahem* walking down the street, a lady leaned out of her car and yelled, "I love your shoes!" (Those four little words totally made my day!)


Now it's a known fact amongst my friends that I have a bit of a shoe collection.
Every time I pass a shoe store I have a deep-seated belief that I have an obligation to go into that store-no matter what my checkbook says!
I don't know what comes over me
.I. Can't. Help. Myself.

:O)

Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with
~Carrie Bradshaw

#########

Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear

'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things
I should have said

So I speak to you in riddles because
My words get in my way.
I smoke thewhole thing to my head and feel itwash away
'cause i can't take anymoreof this,
I want to come apart.
or dig myself a little hole insideyour precious heart'

Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
I am nothing more than a little boy inside
That cries out for attention
though I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed

'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

~Staind

I w o n t b e t h a t g i r l.

Dont feed me your stupid lines that you think I want to hear, only to five minutes later feed them to some other chick...
I dont believe them anymore.

Dont make promises you know you cant keep...
I dont trust you anymore.

Dont pretend to care when you dont...
I wont share with you anymore.

Dont complain to me that you're feeling neglected...
because frankly I'm not going to be there for you anymore.


I wont be that girl.
I wont be taken advantage of.
I wont be a friend of convenience.
I wont be at your beck and call.
I am not here at your disposal.


Im getting really sick, actually rather fed up with these guys who can enter someones life and so easily toy with their emotions.
Whatever happenned to being GENUINE?
Creating special bonds with the different individuals you meet rather than saying a whole lot of the same nothingness to appease them.
No girl likes to be made a fool of.
What purpose does it serve you?
Does it make you happy to know you're stringing along all these girls without remorse?

Every guy I meet has such a knack for
making me feel special,
feel thought of, feel like IM THE ONLY ONE,
only to disappoint me in the end
by throwing it all away like I meant absolutely nothing.
I deserve more than that.
I wont be a puppet in your games.
Im smarter than you.
Im one step ahead.
I will feed you your lines right back and with more conviction.
So dont think your tactics will work on me.
I can see right through them- right through you.

It's like sometimes when you get caught up with your own impression of the world
and the people around you,
it's time to just take a step back for a second
to actually observe reality
and understand whats really going on
and realize how you're really being treated.

This is my G O O D B Y E...

life

LIFE
~People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway. If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies; Succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway. Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; It was never between you and them anyway.
~Mother Teresa

Dare to Dream

Dream of the life you want to live
The sights you want to see
The skills you want to cultivate
The you, you want to be...Dream of the life you want to live

Then take your dream to heart
In everything you do or say
Let your dream play a part...Let it be a shining star
That guides you on your way
Dream of the life you want to live
Then Live Your Dream Each Day
~Michelle~

a way of LIFE

A mantra by the Dalai Lama:
Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.Don't ask yourself why life is so complicated. Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

We are constantly unhappy, because our today is the tomorrow that we worried about yesterday. We worry because we analyze.Worrying has become our habit. That's why we are not happy.Don't worry about uncertainty because it is inevitable, but worrying is optional.Pain is not due to uncertainty. Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.We go through trials but don't have to suffer, it's also optional.With that experience our life becomes better not bitter.Experience is a hard teacher.She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.She offers beneficial lessons to enhance mental strength.Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.


And though succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction remember that success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.


Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.Frankly, in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading.


We always ask "Why me?" when we suffer, but hardly ever when we prosper.

Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.

Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

To get the best out of life, face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts or doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve

I WANT TO KNOW

It doesnt interest me what you do for a living.

I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your hearts longing.

It doesnt interest me how old you are.

I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool, for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesnt interest me what planets are squaring your moon...

I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by lifes betrayals, or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness, and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to...

be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.
It doesnt interest me if the story you are telling me is true.

I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine.

It doesnt interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
It doesnt interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesnt interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

-Oriah Mountain Dreamer

quote on...

"Think "impossible" and dreams get discarded, projects get abandoned, and hope for wellness is torpedoed.But let someone yell the words "It's possible,"and resources we hadn't been aware of come rushing in to assist us in our quest. I believe we are all potentially brilliant and creative--but only if we believe it, only if we have an attitude of positive expectancy toward our ideas, and only if we act on them." - Greg Anderson
Make it a habit to tell people thank you. To express your appreciation,sincerely and without the expectation of anything in return.Truly appreciate those around you,and you'll soon find many others around you.Truly appreciate life, and you'll find that you have more of it.-- Ralph Marston.
Action is eloquence. Acting is my life and other than that- my favorite thing to do is run, I think the reason I like it so much is because it kind of signifies my life- I can just keep pushing and run forever to the point that it feels like I'm flying- and in life I can keep pushing until all of my dreams come true-push through the hard times, and before ya know it im FlyI can do ANYTHING. I like learning new things,not only expanding my resume, but gaining new ways to relate to the world, and those around me.~unknown
"...whether it is an old friend or new friend,there's not much difference anyway, because I always believe we are the same; we are all human beings.Of course, there may be differences in cultural background or way of life,there may be differences in our faith, or we may be of a different color, but we are human beings, consisting for the human body and the human mind. Our physical structure is the same, and our mind and our emotional nature are also the same.Wherever I meet people, I always have the feeling that I am encoutering another human being, just like myself. I find it is much easier to comunicate with others on that level. If we emphasize specific characteristics,like I am Tibetan or I am Buddhist,then there are differences. But those things are secondary. If we can leave the differences aside, I think we can easily communicate, exchange ideas, and share experiences."-Dalai Lama

Rawk n rollz

i Love having fun and I'm extremely open minded, which allows for alot of go0d excuses to make bad choices ;)
i'm the girl with a smile always on her face.
Always ready to meEt new pEople.
i'M extreMely aMbitious and a little Bit c0uraGeous
i try t0 make tHe most oUt of eVery moMent i'm bleSsed with.
i'm a huge huGe HUGE nerd and i'm pRoud of it.
Hopeless Romantic.
i believe when y0u put your mind to soMething, tHe possibilities are endleSs.
I'm really friendly.
Ima Dreamer. I
'm passionate ab0ut subjects that eRk me.
i can be shy
i love happy people and knowing that you have the power to make others SMILE.
Sunny days.
I'm a self proclaimed GIRL.
I Love MAkeup!
I hate Monday moRnings and feEling unprepared
I love everything about the OCEAN and talking on the ph0ne for hours about AbSoLutely nothing
.loyal to tHe end to any0ne i call my fRiend.
i would give myself c0mpLetely to the oNe i Love.
Self-less bUt stuBborn. I'm not perfect by aNy means.
I have a LOT in life that I'm reAdy to tAke on.
i refuse to wASte my time, eNergy, and love on lost causes.

looking4THATguy

Someone who inspires me every day.
Someone who I can learn from. Someone who challenges me.
Someone who doesnt look at me and make assumptions or pass their judgement, but rather takes the time to find out whats going on inside.
Someone who is artistic in their own right.
Someone who is happy with themselves or is at least on the path to making sure their days are spent positively.
Someone that I cant get enough of.
Someone who is strong mentally, not only physically.
Someone who feeds my ears with thoughts and ideas and is able to express how they feel. Someone with style, charisma, a sparkle in their eyes,and a fire in their heart.

<<>>

*My New Year's resolution for the past several years has been to stop swearing and never talk badly about people...and they will continue to be my resolutions every year until I accomplish them.

*I tend not to take my own advice.

*i believe everything is a choice. you just have to be strong enough to make that choice... i wish i could explain why or how

*I want to get into the FBI...and think being a stunt double would be the awesome.

*I like to be very organized in whatever it is I'm doing or about to do

*At one point in my life I really did think high school would be like what I saw on T.V.

*Never let me pick what line to stand in...whatever one I move to will take the longest without fail.

*Tulips are my favorite flower

* I love a good thunderstorm

*If you risk nothing, then you risk everything!

blah again...

I wish I can find -
That one guy that will appreciate me.
That will realize how much I do for him.
That will treat me with respect and dignity.
That is not after my ass.
That comforts me and supports me the way I comfort and support him.
That will stand behind me whether I'm right or wrong.
That can put up with my crazy ideas.
That will LOVE me for me

aries....

PISCES - The perfect girl(2/19-3/20)EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. Always get what they want. Very Attractive. Easy going. RARE Finding. GOOD when found. Loves being in relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. NOT one to mess with!!!*4 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

CAPRICORN - The One that Waits(12/22-1/19)Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word. Caring. Smart.Sweet. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please.Loves to smile.Beautiful laugh.Patient.Cautions.Bit of naughty. By far best in bed!The one and only.*7 Years of bad luck if you do not repost

AQUARIUS -(1/20-2/18)Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to Have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Attractive. Loud. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.*7 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

ARIES- The Irresistible One(3/21-4/19)Nice Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.*9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

TAURUS- The Aggressive One(4/20-5/20)Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.*12 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

GEMINI - The Gorgeous one(5/21-6/21)Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. dual personalities. Loves relationships,Addictive. Loud.*16 years of bad luck if you do not repost

CANCER - The Coolest mutha fucka ull ever meet.(6/22-7/22)Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock You The Fuck Out. Great In Bed.*2 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

LEO - The Sexy One(7/23-8/22)Very talkative. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and SEXY. Have own unique appeal. Irresistible. Most caring person you'll ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with...they will kick your ass... u might end up crying...*10 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

VIRGO- The Promiscuous One(8/23-9/22)Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..*10 years of bad luck if you don't repost

LIBRA - The Asshole(9/23-10/22)Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.*5 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

SCORPIO - The slutty One(10/23-11/21)Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. Amazing in bed. A caring person. ONE OF A KIND.Gorgeous Smile.Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!*15 years of bad luck if you do notrepost.

SAGITTARIUS-THE SUPERIOR SEXUAL PARTNER(11/22-12/21)Loves to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it..Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart

The Irony of love

The greatest irony of love; loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life... and sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again... for some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person... in my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else... most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. love is always present. it's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little... as we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right... most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them we are just for passing time. while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger... so here's a piece of advice; let go when you're hurting too much. give up when love isn't enough. and move on when things are not like before... For sure there is someone out there WHO WILL LOVE YOU EVEN MORE...