really now???

The other day I went shopping… I was in fitting rooms I was trying on dresses-, I heard a French man outside my fitting room curtain- "Mademoiselle, mademoiselle- may I have your opinion?" Scared at the sheerness of the curtain, the proximity of his voice, and the lack of clothing on my body I jumped a bit and blurted out "Give me one second..." Safely outfitted in a brown tank dress (which I did not buy, thank you very much) I whipped the curtain back and there was a cute, half naked guy about my age standing a few feet from me in a very tight bathing suit. "Ahh, what do you think?" he asked me with a blaringly strong accent. "I think it looks great" I said to him smiling. "Don't get the black though, that's too boring". After exchaning a few pleasantries I disappeared back into my own fitting room. As I tried on the next dress I could hear French man's American friend outside: "Man, we have to go, like now." "Ohhh," said the French man (in his accent)"why can you not have fun on your lunch break and pretend to be a French man as well?!" At this point I started giggling uncontrolably in my fitting room, then they started laughing too, and by the time I had come out they had left.So thank you fake French guy. I totally love that there are guys somewhere out there who, on their lunch breaks, pretend to be French to get a girl's opinions on tight swimwear just for the fun of it! You seriously made my day

9/11/01


We all have them: Memories of September 11Th.

Where were we? What were we doing? We remember the exact moment that we stood transfixed, eyes wide open as the comforts of home, of our nation ~ our United States of America, exploded before our very eyes.

We remember the television images we couldn't quite believe in our shell-shock, the words we couldn't quite comprehend, and the instinct of knowing that things would never again be as they once were.


I was sleeping, didn't have to be to school until 10:30 for psych class...

My mom woke me up...

I remember her voice sounded horrified...

"a plane just hit the world trade center, i think we are at war"...

Jumped out of bed to see the second plane hit the tower...

I was wearing my Arizona Diamondbacks white circle k shirt and black basketball shorts...

It was sunny and warm still out side...


I began to fear for my family...

My sister in the Army...

The ones who were going to loose their family...

The ones who were going to loose their sisters...


I didn't go to school that day...

I sat most of the day crying watching and praying...

The place where I grew up, A part of my life just crumbled before my eyes...

Innocence of our country lost...

shoot.. so much for big dreams...

The other night I though about my care less spending… As I washed my face ($17.50), plucked my eyebrows (new tweasers-$10), masked myself for 10 minutes ($19.50) and treated/moisturized ($20 combo). Bright-eyed and bushy-tailed, I jumped out of bed this morning eager to see the results of money well spent. Instead I immediately realized that 1) the face stuff stained (maybe it will come out?) my pillows and 2) I REEK of sulfur..So I guess what I'm saying isone night's face regeime: $67belief that Sephora can solve all my problems: priceless

A Must Read...

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh! too little, driv e too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less. These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent. Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
~george carlin

found this...

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.(Yes, that includes getting pregnant gurl...)
2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
3. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
4. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
5. Slower is better.
6. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
7. Have goals and be self sufficient. The last thing u need is to be trapped in a relationship just cause u need him to survive.
8. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then, heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
9. Don't settle.
10. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
11. Don't stay because you think, "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
12. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
13. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
14. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
15. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.
16. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
17. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.
18. Never try to pin a man down, ultimatums don't work.
19. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.
20. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
21. Never let a man define who you are.
22. Never borrow someone else's man.
23. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
24. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
25. All men are NOT dogs.
26. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street. Any relationship must b mutual for it to work.
27. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage...deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
28. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
28. Dating can be fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
29. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
30. Never move into his mother's house.
31. Never co-sign for a man. (Hallelujah, thank you Jesus!)
32. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
33. If you are dating a man more than 6 months and never met his friends or family YOU ARE NOT HIS GIRL.
34. Love is wonderful

again...

And finally, the most important breakup rule, no matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends... ~carrie bradshaw...
Patience? Is it really a virtue? Or a defense? I do not know.
I don't care for the truth because it comes in ugly packages. Andits scary. Besides everyone always knows the truth anyway. They just choose to ignore it. Because it seldom does any good…..

Sometimes we make stories about our lives and keep believing them until these stories become a reality . till all our senses, our thinking, our existence get infiltrated. we only realize too late, and sometimes, we do not realize at all.

Should i be ashamed? of having loved recklessly. or having recklessly named lust as love…? I do not know. I am confused. But I do know this… I am what I am. Because of all who came before him. Because of him… And I will be who I will be because of all those who might be coming after him….

The other day it rained… I sat outside and let it fall on my face…no hesitation to stay dry… I looked down and saw a rock
and toss into the dark brown puddle that had formed from the rain... Watch the ripples…. And see the surface getting quite again… Life is like that…


"Love is just like having a relationship with fireWhy couldn't you understand that it would only sting you laterWhat happened to me? where were my senses?Why did I ever love the one who would never love me back…"

Songs… they sometimes just spell out the words in your head and in your heart…